A lesson

First time having a proper interview for my internship. A very pretty and classy hotel that I wish to work at. However, I think I took this interview too lightly and confident as I believe with my working experience and being myself already enough. 

Argh...A lot of things I already knew but I didn't apply it to the interview. First time feeling so helpless, embarrassing and shame on myself for taking things so lightly. But i never regret for attending this interview. The interviewer who willing to share things with me is already way too kind. It make me realize that i'm still lacking lots of things, make me realize the formal we wear in University is way too informal, make me realize the real working environment is so much different from my previous temporary job, make me realize i look so unprofessional compared with them. Still remember when I stepped out from the office, the feeling of reentering the hotel to find my dear who are waiting for me made me want to hide myself up from everyone who pass by even the bell doorman who open the door for me. I lost all my confidence in 30 min.

But after cooling down my own thought, actually i'm feeling blessed and glad having this great experience. All the way from Kedah to KL. It's tiring but worth! This interview made me realize lot of things that i'm lacking and neglected. It's better to fall down first before you learn how to stand and walk right? I'm glad my first interview was given to this hotel. The feeling of embarrass is still there but it makes me want to become better knowing that i'm still a novice with limited knowledge. It makes me feel like taking the challenge and accept the job if they accepted me. Whether i'm accepted or rejected, I want to believe the best is still waiting for me because i also learnt to believe myself is Special, Different and Better! Thanks to my korean lecturer(Jun Sang) a very inspiring lecturer who taught us to be a better person.

Thanks to this person too. He accompany me all the way from Kedah to KL for my interview, brought me there and wait for me. Because of him, I learn to believe the best is still waiting for me. Because of him I want to be happy and think positively so that my moodiness will not affect him. Really enjoy being home with him and his family members. Feeding fish at the lake during evening. Made me miss my childhood time together with my family members...>.<

Never once in my life regret of meeting this guy. He may not be perfect but i'm satisfy just with him. For me, he is way too great for me that i'm afraid i'm no match for him. 

Right now~i just want to appreciate everything right in front of me, my love, my family, my friends, my Uni life... Everything! I want to enjoy and appreciate everything i did and meet because we might not know what will happen the next moment just like MH370. May those people rest in peace.

My 9th monthsary~

I always wanted to see how grapes grown..and I never thought Malaysia have it in Sik Kedah area called Beris Lake Vineyard! Grapes can grow in hot weather too huh...Now I know...haha...

Glad my dear and I had planned this trip to celebrate our 9th monthsary and so excited for the first time in my life saw those grapes still hanging on the plant. Feel like plucking it on the spot and eat! but too bad~ No plucking!~ Really like the feeling of exploring new place with the one you love, everything was just too perfect, feeling fresh and young in our final semester of University life. How I wish to feel this everyday! 

Too bad~ The date ended way too fast because my menstrual pain! How I wish it to be longer...
But still thanks to my dear. Like the warm feeling he gave me when I'm in pain. <3

Siow Leng Wedding~

First time attending friend's wedding and be her jie mei tuan. It's tired thought but still everything i have done(hair, skip class) so far i think it's worth.
Wake up early in the morning getting ready myself and drove to a place i had never been with 2 other friend to Siow Leng house. On the way to her house we were lost...hmm...not exactly....just that her house was difficult to find! haha..

After found her house and got in the room. The makeup artist is still helping her with her hair. Watching my friend sitting beautifully and talking with us. It's still unbelievable to see the thin and slim girl getting done with those makeup, heavy hairstyle, heavy accessories and the heavy gown  is getting married! Everything on her is so heavy but can't deny it's pretty! 

Every woman in the house was so busy walking here and there and man was the one taking care of the children. I felt tired for those woman just by watching beside while discussing games for groom's gang. Imagine myself getting married and got whole family so busy for me. I'm the one who getting marry eh,  i would not want them to be so busy for me. Simple is the best!

After the whole process of morning section til the groom house. I can't help but help her feel the loneliness surrounded by her husband relative only. Wonder will I feel that too when I'm marry? 

Everyone already tired including us. But deep in my heart, i think no one is as tired as the bride. Have to gone through all the traditions with all heavy stuff and also have to care of the make up. Felt tired for my friend and those woman who gone through wedding before. Married is something to be happy, but don't know why in my eyes everything seems tired? Maybe i'm still too young for that~ Whatever~

However, felt happy for Siow Leng. She looks pretty in her favorite color dress. Wish you two happiness on your wedding and live happily ever after just like the fairy tales!

Am i Lucky or not?

It's fun dating with my dear to pick up a pink dress to attend as bridesmaid for my friend's wedding on this coming Sunday although we didn't get any. Somehow things just gone upside down for the rest of noon. Everything is just unpredictable. It started with blind spot of my dear while driving and almost got crash by a speedy car. Then the driver seat of power window stuck and followed by the lost of touch n go...In the end, the purpose of picking up a dress didn't achieve as well. Thanks god things happened while i'm not alone. Imagine so much things happen while i'm driving back Taiping alone!

However, one thing that made me realize is the law of attraction! I guess law of attraction is real and does exist in my life huh...the lost of my touch n go card....Just realize that few days ago my mind did appear this thought and wonder those people who lost their touch n go card with a lot of credits in it must be very pity, and i remember people did advice not to load so much credit in the card in case will lose it. Then i think it won't happen to me, cause i'll be really careful with cards stuff. And now it did happen on me! Why so coincidence huh, things that i just giving though few days ago and now it really happened! LAW OF ATTRACTION! What a great lesson that i'm going to remember for life and not to simply think negative stuff again!

Argh.....so many things happen for a day...Hope things like my dear said...credit lost to pay for our safety...However, glad that things ended with chatting and laughing with bunch of friends in rooms and also tennis court. It's doesn't feel really bad after all~ Just hope that things gonna be even better tomorrow.

Oh gosh~ It's been a month huh~

After Chinese New Year and holidays...Finally i"m back here again to this jungle UUM...After all those wonderful and lazy holidays with friends, family and love one.

It's been great having to meet up with friends from primary school during CNY after so many years. All pretties and handsomes! and they already grown up so much even myself without realizing. Some of them already start working, only minority are still studying including me. Glad we are still able to talk and joke around after so many years!

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And here it comes the visiting house, gathering with form 6 gang, and also the unexpected trip to Kek Lok Si after dinner at Tao restaurant. It's been crazy but enjoyable and really miss those form 6 moment when everyone are still so young and did crazy stuff together!

After CNY and those lazy time at home, here it comes my very first Valentine with Him~ it's short but still a very memorable trip with Him to Melaka~ Everything on Valentine he planned and gave me is kinda unexpected actually. There it is ~the me with Him wearing the dress he gave me as Valentine gift to fine dining in a 5 star hotel. Thanks for everything dear~ ^^

Wonder when will I have those lazy time again huh. Whatever ~ Anyway, it's time to wake up and enjoy my last semester in University! Gambateh! ^^

Kid sent me this!

The kid that most difficult to handle in my group sent me this! Never in life thought of this! So touching..
Still remember the first day of camp when i first meet him, his attitude is so not welcoming and he told me that he was forced to join this camp which trouble my heart so much. Then, deep in my heart i swear i'm gonna melt this little kid icy cold attitude in this 3 days 2 nights! And i think i made it! ^^

He always act like a little adult and keep himself away from every activities ypw provided. Although his attitude is hard to handle and keep staying out of the circle but still deep in his heart i know he don't like to be neglect. And that's the way he wants people attention. It's sad at the beginning of camp without him giving cooperation in group, but after observing and being together with them for 3 days 2 nights, thanks god i get to know each of them better especially 'him', give them more attention and did try my best to lead this group of active kids.

Really happy to know that he did enjoy this camp after all. ^^  At least, all my hard work and effort i put in leading them didn't go wasted. How wish that i could give them contact no to keep in touch! Really miss them!

Finally...Camp is over!

<青青幼苗> 生活营 in SJK(C) Hu Yew Seah has finally ended! This certificate, souvenir and an apple green t-shirt is the only leftover things as memory. Since 13th January after my last paper in Semester 5 until 21th including the celebration, we've been busy preparing camp for that primary school. This is also our first time experience training in uni instead of the primary school, things get stuck because the school only allow us to go there started 14th. Although I'm no longer part of the organizers but as a senior our task is still tough and we knew a lot of things need to rush once we reach the school! Always afraid junior left out this and that, have to back up them in group, accompany them to complete their task no matter how late was it even myself already 'half dead' of pain and tired. But i can't fall before they did. This is what "senior" mean, have to stay strong and give junior confident! I already realize it since early of Semester 5, really wish our batch can be a team like we use to be back in Sem 3, then everything no matter how tired was it, everything seem to be worth doing. 

Now i realize senior is not easy to be. This is how our senior(19th batch) felt last time when we were junior and now i knew already. Really admire all of them. Wonder how they make it! Everything seem hard and impossible, dealing with situation and kids, they able to make it become possible. 3 of them already graduate, another 8 already last semester. Gonna miss them so so so much! Why people wouldn't appreciate the time or things when they are together and People will only get nervous and feel lost when things already gone or part. Really dislike this feeling, it felt so bitter in heart. Really wish 19th batch seniors are still there next semester. Really really appreciate their coming back and help. They are the only one who understand us the most right now. Everything they said seem to have hit the jackpot in our heart. Seniors i love you guys so much! Really can't imagine what will happen without you guys to help us(20th batch) and 21th batch juniors. 

I will never forget the last day of camp after all the kids gone back and we went to send 19th batch seniors off. The feeling is so bitter in heart, heart is already crying since in the hall but we hold it until their car are no longer in our sight, and then tears falling fiercely out of control! The feeling is so hard to describe. It's like finally realize the meaning of "senior" mixed with feeling of relieve that camp is over after everything, task to back up juniors and so on. Will never want to experience this anymore, but there is still one more semester to go. The few of us can do it right?

However, sitting down and flash back everything that happen from 13th-21th January. Things wasn't that bad after all. Reading notes given by those kids I've lead for 3 days 2 nights, telling me sorry for not doing their task properly, watching them crying really ache my heart. Leading 8 kids is not easy, one of them is indian(super active and don't eat vegetable always split it out, but during last day of camp finally ate it !^^), one of them(keep disobeying what i said), feel like crying when they are don't listen to me. Luckily the rest is still okay but very active, one of the girl is so pretty and some of them are super cute! Hope they learn a lot from us during this camp and really miss them now! >.<

Guess i still stuck in 辅导组 even i already senior and suppose to be in other group. Guess next time i would not reject fu dao again because deep in my heart i really love it and it's the only group that suit me. Leading kids that are difficult to deal with and some of activities are the only challenging things that i afraid of. As long the heart of 20th batch's members come back, i think i will never get tired of it! No wonder i'm being called 最佳奶妈! whatever~

However, we ended everything at 斗母宫 Butterworth recording a Chinese New Year mv before everyone separate going back to their hometown! Can't wait to see the full mv!