<青青幼苗> 生活营 in SJK(C) Hu Yew Seah has finally ended! This certificate, souvenir and an apple green t-shirt is the only leftover things as memory. Since 13th January after my last paper in Semester 5 until 21th including the celebration, we've been busy preparing camp for that primary school. This is also our first time experience training in uni instead of the primary school, things get stuck because the school only allow us to go there started 14th. Although I'm no longer part of the organizers but as a senior our task is still tough and we knew a lot of things need to rush once we reach the school! Always afraid junior left out this and that, have to back up them in group, accompany them to complete their task no matter how late was it even myself already 'half dead' of pain and tired. But i can't fall before they did. This is what "senior" mean, have to stay strong and give junior confident! I already realize it since early of Semester 5, really wish our batch can be a team like we use to be back in Sem 3, then everything no matter how tired was it, everything seem to be worth doing.
Now i realize senior is not easy to be. This is how our senior(19th batch) felt last time when we were junior and now i knew already. Really admire all of them. Wonder how they make it! Everything seem hard and impossible, dealing with situation and kids, they able to make it become possible. 3 of them already graduate, another 8 already last semester. Gonna miss them so so so much! Why people wouldn't appreciate the time or things when they are together and People will only get nervous and feel lost when things already gone or part. Really dislike this feeling, it felt so bitter in heart. Really wish 19th batch seniors are still there next semester. Really really appreciate their coming back and help. They are the only one who understand us the most right now. Everything they said seem to have hit the jackpot in our heart. Seniors i love you guys so much! Really can't imagine what will happen without you guys to help us(20th batch) and 21th batch juniors.
I will never forget the last day of camp after all the kids gone back and we went to send 19th batch seniors off. The feeling is so bitter in heart, heart is already crying since in the hall but we hold it until their car are no longer in our sight, and then tears falling fiercely out of control! The feeling is so hard to describe. It's like finally realize the meaning of "senior" mixed with feeling of relieve that camp is over after everything, task to back up juniors and so on. Will never want to experience this anymore, but there is still one more semester to go. The few of us can do it right?
However, sitting down and flash back everything that happen from 13th-21th January. Things wasn't that bad after all. Reading notes given by those kids I've lead for 3 days 2 nights, telling me sorry for not doing their task properly, watching them crying really ache my heart. Leading 8 kids is not easy, one of them is indian(super active and don't eat vegetable always split it out, but during last day of camp finally ate it !^^), one of them(keep disobeying what i said), feel like crying when they are don't listen to me. Luckily the rest is still okay but very active, one of the girl is so pretty and some of them are super cute! Hope they learn a lot from us during this camp and really miss them now! >.<
Guess i still stuck in 辅导组 even i already senior and suppose to be in other group. Guess next time i would not reject fu dao again because deep in my heart i really love it and it's the only group that suit me. Leading kids that are difficult to deal with and some of activities are the only challenging things that i afraid of. As long the heart of 20th batch's members come back, i think i will never get tired of it! No wonder i'm being called 最佳奶妈! whatever~
However, we ended everything at 斗母宫 Butterworth recording a Chinese New Year mv before everyone separate going back to their hometown! Can't wait to see the full mv!
